So I don't forget..

I forgot about Balls

I haven't thought about balls, ie testicles in like a month or more. Somebody brought them to my attention the other day and I was like, to myself, Oh yeah balls exist. All my dick fantasies had involved just that, dick, then I remembered dick's quiet friend, nutsack. So weird. I remembered balls and I was like Awww, balls.

Filipino Dreamin

I might dream about Filipinos tonight again. The same friend who was in the dream before posted another slutty Filipino photo on Instagram like she did the first freezer/Filipino/masturbation dream I had, and I'm pretty sure that's what triggered Filipino girls in party dresses to come to my dream. So lets see if I dream about Filipino girls tonight. I don't mind if they're there. It was a pretty empowering dream. I just want to see if I'll have a Filipino dream every time she posts a photo like that to insta. Also, I'd like to explore this freezer possibility. I'd like to maybe manifest the giant freezer into a new dream. Dreaming is hard tho! Lucid dreaming is difficult. Sometimes no matter how hard you try, you can't bring a person or place into a dream. So I'll start with something little, like a masturbation freezer. That's pretty non siginificant, other than that I liked it like i liked the Filipinos. Ok, see ya later freezer. Please feel free to show up in my dream but be nice. Don't open up while ppl are trying to masturbate on you and don't hide things like bodies in you or lock bodies in you when they are playing hide-and-seek. Thanks. Goodnight.

*Update: I haven't dreamt about freezers at all. It hasn't shown up. I didn't dream about Filipinos either. 

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Happy 2011

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A somewhat empowering but frustrating dream I woke up to this morning

Friday Jan 4, 2013 - Morning

Freezer Dream

I felt compelled to write this one down. I should be writing them all down but I haven't in months. It is also worth noting that I've been suffering a bad fever the past three days. Flu-like symptoms and terrible chills. Last night it reached the point of numb fingertips, blue fingernails, and nipples that felt they were being ripped off. This morning after my empowering dream, I woke up completely healthy.

Earliest I remember in the dream is encroaching upon a group of Filipinos, one of who I know, in a hummer type vehicle, with Filipino girls in short dresses shrouded around the vehicle giggling and flirting. They wanted me to get in the vehicle, and hoisted me up. Me, also wearing a short dress and no underwear, had to cover my crotch with my hand as to not flash everyone out the driver side window and below. I think I may have been driven around a bit in this vehicle of Filipino men, I don't remember. 

Later I ended up where I wanted to, a lab type of place that was more reminiscent of the hallways of a basement of a restaurant. I was gathering chemicals. That was my mission. But I was also on a masturbation mission. I don't often have sex or masturbation dreams but if I do it's in the morning. I'm not sure if I was trying to make a kind of drug or what specific hydro-chloro-what I was on the hunt for, but I found a giant, GIANT deep freeze that I managed to climb up on. 

There were people or chemists or druglords outside the freezer hallway and this heightened my masturbatory desires. I positioned myself on the freezer and right then one of the dozens of men I'd flirted with on the way in came up and, to tease me, opened the deep freeze with me on it. This freaked me out because I didn't want to fall to the formidable crack between the wall and the deep freeze. Completely oblivious to my masturbatory desire, he laughed as I told him to stop. He finally did and left me alone. I worried for a moment my phone, which I was planning on using to masturbate with, had fallen in the crack. Luckily, I'd hung on to it. I'd hung on to my chemicals too.

All of a sudden the room adjacent to the freezer room, which had seconds before been another hallway or lab for storing dangerous chemicals, turned into my grandmother's living room with all my christmas family in it. I STILL wanted to masturbate, I had to now, I didn't care that my family were all there wondering what I was doing on the freezer. If I could just get myself far enough towards the wall they would not be able to see me. But the idiot who had opened the freezer with me on it had also shifted the freezer so that the crack between the freezer and the wall was about 2 ft wide. I got off the freezer and pushed with all my might *(CR if someone helped me or not) and got it back to its original position. I hoisted myself back onto the freezer and I fit perfectly next to the wall on the freezer, out of family eye-view, ready to masturbate. 

THEN I WOKE UP. How frustrating. But empowering.